Do Overs

Do I want a do over, a chance to get it right? What is right and what does it look like?

Given an opportunity, would I go back and change things in my life?

It's tempting to say I would ignore the counsel of a teacher at my junior college and pursue being an architect. I could be designing great things today if I had.

I could have worked to get a college degree instead of working for a living and trying to immediately survive being on my own.

It is a possibility that my foraging into mainstream christianity and my subsequent baptism in 1977 was a fluke and that I should have avoided that all together.

Then there was the dream of being a pilot that I never fulfilled. Should I have stuck that out? Could I be flying 747s between Seattle and India today?

And what about relationships? What about falling in love too easily, too deeply, too often? Should I change that if I could?

So, when I think about do overs, I find myself looking at a life that brought me here, to this place, this moment. All the trials and tribulations, the small triumphs, the pleasures and the pain; that path is what brought me here. For all my faults, all my gifts, it's what brought me here today.

And from here, I continue, living, being the product of the last 50 years. When it comes down to it, I don't want a do over.

I'm too busy living today.